Transformer

Try walking with a stick for a leg, that's how it feels now with the knee mobilizer (or immobilizer)? Had my twisted knee check and good thing there are no fractures. The doctor still wants to make sure there are no torn ligaments or something. So this is what he advised me to wear to lessen the stress on the injured part for two weeks. But me thinks I'm not going to wear this for long. Hikhikhik 

Marooned (Again)

It's a fucked up day today; lost my sdcard (and 8 years worth of contacts) and twisted my knee. But once again, Maroon 5, came to the rescue with their music. It always does as it did before. Listening now to "Call and Response: The Remix Album" and I'm suddenly better again, never mind the limping and the fact that I've to build up my contacts again. 

Let's just say, we're starting the new year afresh. ;)

Merry Christmas! :)

Christmas is around the corner and I thought all of us need some reminding. Found this one on www.postsecret.blogspot.com

Disneyland? Try Josephland! :)

This is the cutest online gift I've ever received. This is from Ate Linds, you have to see it to believe.

And I've never been to Disneyland yet. 

Hehehehee

Merry Christmas from All of Us

Watch us dance here. Nelson couldn't join us again for the dance because he's up north with the chest and nuts (chestnuts) eheeheheh

To You

I lost you then but I have you now. Stay near. I bask in the sunlight of your presence, while not like before, it nonetheless warms. I need you while I figure out this darkness. You have been another's. Like you were mine before. But I don't mind. I, too, have been somebody's. Though differently now, we have each other once more. The heart understands what the mind doesn't. Your kiss didn't change at all (or was it my idea of you?). It is the same caress I used to know. When I rested you on my shoulders, instantly it felt as though the world has not moved since the last time I held you. I was again along that highway, in a cab, with you and all our drunken worries and passionate kisses some four years ago. I lost you then. But I have you now. You have not died and all these years I have been wrong. You will no longer die. Because you live in me. I have not lost you. And will never.

Blissful Hiss

Please come to the group exhibit entitled "Blissful Hiss" which a friend, Dada, invited me to participate. Punta kayo ha? :)

Happy Place

I've always been afraid of the past, preferring to leave it as I left it: questions unanswered, puzzles unsolved.

But I guess I was partly right to avoid it. It has, anyway, a way of coming back. Coming back and resolving itself.

Had a talk last Sunday morning (hmmmm I can relate to Maroon 5's "Sunday Morning" soooo much better hehehe) with P.

First off, past is past but it felt good to revisit it. In between bottles of beer (and pansit for him), while the early morning sun rose, we talked about what had happened between us.

There were, suffice it to say, issues within me that were resolved. Misconceptions, mostly mine, that were corrected. For the longest time, in a flashbulb moment, I've been living in one.

I have trust issues I told him.

And then he proceeded to ask why my last relationship didn't work out.

I refused to tell him (in my mind I knew what the answer was) and asked him instead if he were to be trusted that time.

Yes. He said. Never mind if that could have been more of a justification, an excuse.

Like the Sunday morning sun, a light shone on the deepest darkest corners of my mind.

And every thing became clear.

I saw myself as I used to be. I remembered how I was at a time when love was really love and was not a matter of convenience.

For the first time in several years, it felt that that person is never out of reach again.

I could be what I was before.

I am excited to meet my former self.