When I woke up this morning, I felt light, like one would feel after a deep sleep, a long rest, after a fight has been resolved, after something has been resolved.
I told this to Aiz. "Peace?" she suggested.
"I'm not sure. Did I feel light because I'm empty?" I asked.
It's been bittersweet, his leaving both literally and figuratively from home and from me. Out of curiousity I opened his email and checked his "sent folders". There I found an email he sent to his bf. Said he was in Hong Kong now and that he misses him so much.
Fuck!
Why did I even have to open his goddamn email?!Makes me wonder, if I could find courage to do such crazy things, plunge into things that I knew would ultimately hurt me, why couldn't I find the courage to forget?
I am the cross that I bear.
About Me
- Phoenix Rising
- I was reborn on my 24th birthday. A Libran, they say, I have the innate ability to balance things. So I am a little of both, if you know what I mean. Words are my currency. But I am, still, fascinated by silence. ABOUT MY BLOG. Just as there are mission and vision statements for newspapers, here's what it is for my blog: This is largely personal, for my friends and their friends' consumption. Nothing in this blog should be taken to mean as the position of the media outfit I'm working for. As its name suggests, expect some melancholy as you can expect some opinions. Expect fire as you can expect fear. Questions as there are answers.
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