You guys recognise the bear of course, someday, I told myself, this umbilical cord to the past would be burned.
Tonight was the night.
This, for the times he loved me and thought of me (and for the times otherwise). Took me 8 months or so but the past few days saw me making significant, albeit small steps, to forgetting so I thought i'd hasten the process. It's a difficult decision to make, but one that must be made.
Watching it burn was like re-living the memories, i'm still dizzy from the stench of burnt cotton. I feel empty, hallow which tells me i've gained space for my next great love. Only God knows when he will come (no pun intended). That's how life and love works, you make space for new things. God knows how much I loved/love him but as Mathilde said in 'A Very Long Engagement', 'what is lost is lost... From ashes to ashes'.
Happy independence day!
Jtm
I'm cc:ing this to paul for good measure. I was not your greatest love but I tried.
"...if I fell in love with you, would you promise me to be true and help me understand... Love was more than holding hands." "If I Fell," Maroon5 (original by Beatles, accdg to K).
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