Eyes

The eyes are the windows to the soul. To me, they are my doom.

I've always said that the body part to which I'm attracted the most are the eyes. Sometimes, they're the only requirement. Look me into the eyes, and I shall be willing to forget everything.

They are, as though, doors to my prison.

Hang-Over

"Trust your instincts," a colleague advised me today after a rather rough day at work today.

I initially had advised the office that I wouldn't be going to work but I changed my mind because there were things I needed to do (interview Gonzalez, write the story I pitched, etc. etc. .. life).

I was nursing an aching stomach (because of last night's binge) and had thought it would be better if I just rested at home.

But I did go to work and was, as expected, a little short on energy. I tried exercising (the way I understand it, which was to go to the mall to walk ehehehee) but that just left me a little more exhausted.

And now for the killer:
I did what I shouldn't have been doing since two years ago. Wouldn't be very specific about it here, suffice it to say that I've been warned.

And so, I'm back where I used to be. It's as if two years were only yesterday. But I guess, that's how I know how to learn my lesson, inflict the same pain over and over again until I am numb.

Until I am able to forget.

But then again, I may already have, and this is just a hang-over, in more ways than one.
POSTSCRIPT

I will be transferring to a new house in November. I will be sharing it with two other officemates. The prospect of a new environment and a sembleance of being in a home (actually living with other people) excite me. Planning to buy a new bed. Scouting for one already. I should find the best affordable one I could get. It's where new memories are made.

Time Will Reveal

I always told R., to get what you want, first, you have to know what want. Then you ask and with your fingers-crossed, you pray that God will be kind enough to grant it.

I thought I knew what I was talking about. But now, I don't know. I thought finding a significant other would be easy as finding a good shirt, the style grabs you, and you instantly know it's what you want.

But it's more difficult now. And the I don't know why.

Low Batt

I need some serious recharging. Every where I look I see the sea. Problem is I don't know when I'll be able to take a short vacation (2 days will do) because I have tons of things to do: look for a new house, then proceed to packing and transferring, some phonebill accounting etc. etc.

All I want to do right now is get drunk and get tanned.

Birthday

It's always nice to wake up to loving text messages from friends.

Today is my birthday and I'd like to thank those who remembered. I felt like a kid again though ironically I'm a year older. But age, they say, is all in the mind. Hehehe. Some wisdom from people who are getting old.

Noises

You know who you are:

The loudest noises, it seems, are those which are inside your head.
The biggest fears, are those you thought are hidden but are well-known to others.

Welcome Back

Been a long time since I wrote here. And frankly, I don't have anything to say, yet. I just miss the sound of keyboard. And nothingness.