"He marked a shift," I told Ruth about what had happened in Lucena with U.
"I think I'm ready," I was surprised as much as she was that I said it.
I was ready to risk it again. Only that time I knew it wasn't a game. U's married now and I can't have him. But I was fine with it.
I was merely rehearsing.
Rehearsing again how to abandon my fears and spiral into that wonderful feeling of loving someone and being loved back.
In the process I was purging all of P's memories. I'm no longer his. And I shall love again, like I loved him.
It was like him cradling me. Sometimes, I would wrap my arms around his waist while we were seating. Gently, I would kiss his neck and he would lean. I would meet his cheeks with the softest kisses.
I was merely rehearsing.
But epiphany dawned on me. I know I am ready.
About Me
- Phoenix Rising
- I was reborn on my 24th birthday. A Libran, they say, I have the innate ability to balance things. So I am a little of both, if you know what I mean. Words are my currency. But I am, still, fascinated by silence. ABOUT MY BLOG. Just as there are mission and vision statements for newspapers, here's what it is for my blog: This is largely personal, for my friends and their friends' consumption. Nothing in this blog should be taken to mean as the position of the media outfit I'm working for. As its name suggests, expect some melancholy as you can expect some opinions. Expect fire as you can expect fear. Questions as there are answers.
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